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A big fan of yours

July 19, 2017July 19, 2017 / Mikalina

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Travel is complicated for me in many ways as a superfat,not able-bodied person. I love the feeling of experiencing new places with curiosity and wonder. I relish the small and not so small differences between geographies, architectures, climates, the energies and personalities of places and the people who live there. . Traveling is also when I often feel a lot of discomfort living in my body. I’m often subjected to triggering and invasive TSA pat-downs when the body scanners are unable to comprehend my body. I worry about seatbelts fitting in unusual cars. Will the furniture where I’m staying be comfortable or even sturdy enough? The stress of unfamiliarity is compounded by the ways environments are not built for bodies like mine. In some regions bodies like mine are less common and I collect more outward uncomfortable gazes. . I’m incredibly lucky to have wise and compassionate allies who help me navigate these stresses. They offer me solace, support, and love. But it’s still fucking hard. . I try to stay present with and make space for the feelings that come up when I travel. And yet there is always some amount of vigilance, perseverance that I must maintain until I return safely home. The feelings that have been waiting for more safety to be fully felt and released often get hooked in with twisty stories about my worthiness and my value. Old narratives about my lovability show up in bigger ways than they have in a while. Doubt and shame about my own healing arise my body feels less like my own home that I’ve worked hard to reclaim. . And so. And so this morning as I fell myself pathologizing and separating from myself I noticed. And I listened to the stories I was telling myself. And I remembered that I’d just spent a week in several time zones, at varying altitudes, in unfamiliar environments with varied forms of intense stimulation. . I told the stories about myself that I’m carrying today to someone who has earned my trust. I was met with empathy and spaciousness. The discomfort is still here. But the stories are shifting toward a truth that is my own. The reality of my body in this world is still tough as hell. And I belong. #bodytrust
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